Melancholy

Melancholy; sober thoughtfulness; pensiveness.

This sucks. I am really, really bored. This is a boring post. So don't read anymore. Do me a favor and close this page. 

I am having the Mean Reds. Just like what Audrey Hepburn said in the movie Breakfast at Tiffany's ( one of my all time fav movie ever. ♥ ) I'll just post the line in the movie.

Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds? 
Paul Varjak: The mean reds, you mean like the blues? 
Holly Golightly: No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling? 
Paul Varjak: Sure. 

Am I afraid of something? or I just listened waaaay too much of The Script and Snow Patrol.
Listening to this kind of songs makes me think of some things I would rather forget. Or I think I'm just overreacting. 

AHHHHHHH!!!! I hate this. It just digs up old memories, old experiences, and old feelings. 
And I hate getting flashbacks from things I don.t want to remember.

This is the starting point...

Cadywampus; out of its usual state, screwed up, something is crooked, positioned diagonally, or JUST WRONG ENTIRELY.

Well this is my first entry. Obviously. 

I'm very excited to have my first blog. Well, this is not exactly my FIRST blog. 2 years back, I also made a blog. But for lame purposes. ( to rant and whine about my lovelife ) But now, I am going to post all about my life as a student nurse and all the things I love. I think I am going to post all of my obsessions here too. So wait for that. :)

Today, is a really gloomy day. Because of the weather, and also because I involved myself into compulsive buying again. OHMYGAAAAAD. I wasted a month's allowance just for makeup. 

But still I can't get myself to cancel my order. 

I'll get by. I'm just going to scrimp on food, thats all. ( asa pa. )