Melancholy

Melancholy; sober thoughtfulness; pensiveness.

This sucks. I am really, really bored. This is a boring post. So don't read anymore. Do me a favor and close this page. 

I am having the Mean Reds. Just like what Audrey Hepburn said in the movie Breakfast at Tiffany's ( one of my all time fav movie ever. ♥ ) I'll just post the line in the movie.

Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds? 
Paul Varjak: The mean reds, you mean like the blues? 
Holly Golightly: No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling? 
Paul Varjak: Sure. 

Am I afraid of something? or I just listened waaaay too much of The Script and Snow Patrol.
Listening to this kind of songs makes me think of some things I would rather forget. Or I think I'm just overreacting. 

AHHHHHHH!!!! I hate this. It just digs up old memories, old experiences, and old feelings. 
And I hate getting flashbacks from things I don.t want to remember.