When will my life begin? | Woes of a newly graduate

      You would think after 2 years in preschool, 6 years in grade school, 4 years in high school and another 4 years or more in college, your life will dramatically change. Nope, not really. As a nursing graduate, I still have a long way to go before my "LIFE" really begin. I still need to take and pass the board exam, take specific trainings to practice as a nurse. And that is if you can find a nursing job here in the Philippines.

Have you ever been told that after graduating you "can do whatever you want"? Go wherever you want or experience whatever you want? Well that's not true. How can you do whatever you want if you are not earning money?

I dream of travelling the world and experiencing new things. That is all I ever wanted. Well, also to pass the board exam. :) Right now my current situation is waiting for the results and waiting for our visa to Canada. I have to admit I'm excited to go because I got to be with my mom. And also because I want to see what Canada has in store for me.

   Don't get me wrong, I love my country. I love the Philippines. But I just don't see myself living here the rest of my life. I want to see the world and what it can offer me. Sometimes I panic when I think about the time passing by and I still haven't achieved anything or do the things that I really want.
   I know 21 years old is still very young but the years just go by so quickly.

   I feel so exalted and worried at the same time. Do you get that feeling? Like your whole future is in front of you and you still don't know what it is.

After Boards Jitters | My Experience in taking the NLE Exam Nov. 2014

    OH WELL. That's it. I took the Nursing Board Exam last Nov. 29-30, 2014 and I am FREAKING OUT! They said that it is normal to be a little bit crazy while waiting for the board results but this is just pure torture. Honestly I do not know my stand in the actual test. I mean I answered all the questions, some of it I find easy, some of it were so hard and some were just plain "WHAT THE EFF?" I cried after the first day because I was so stressed. I was trying so hard to calm myself and to think positive things. Because that is what they said, I had to think positive so that the positive energy will come back around. I cannot do it. I just broke down. I feel so sad and stressed and worried. I was thinking a lot of things like what if I didn't passed the board exam? I don't want to disappoint my parents, i don't want to take the board exam again, what will i do with my life??!! Those kinds of thoughts keeps popping in my head that i just snapped.

I cried like a baby when I got home. I talked to my Mom in Viber and she reassured me that everything will be okay. And even if I don't pass the board exam, nothing will changed. She will still love me no matter what. I also talked to my best friends who passed the boards already, they just laugh when I told them my woes and worries. They said that it is normal and I still have 2 exams left, I need to make the most of it.

So I calmed down and just browsed through my notes. One tip is to drink milk before you go to bed so that you can sleep easily and not be too frazzled the next day. 

I was okay on the last examination day. To be honest, after I submitted the last exam ( NP5) I felt the weight on my shoulders disappear. I survived the exam! After not eating for 2 days, I was craving for rice. I was so hungry that time.

Now the real torture begins. Waiting for my name to appear on the PASSED list. I am going crazy!